we all with you!!

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*best lak update blog nih..

Januari sudah meninggalkan kita...

salam..
malam2 nih 30 Januari..
terase kejap jer Allah bagi pinjam waktu ni....
tup tup luse dah bulan Februari...
macam2 jadi time januari nih..
salah satunyer..
My Birthday!!
Alhamdulillah Allah kurniakan kawan2 rumah yg best!! Sporting habis lar..
tanggal 6 Januari hari tu leh lar...ramai gak yg wish..
yg paling xleh luper ialah biler housemates sumer xnak wish..
terase sgt lar waktu tu...
sbnrnyer tau dah diorg sajer nak wat cmtu..
tpi xtau la smpai seserius itu...
org tanyer...diorang wat bodoh jer....ish!! bengang thp karma la org kater..
pastu entah mgapa diorg ajak jalan pegi McD... (boikot..boikot..)
ikut jer la...
then..lepas dilengah2kan oleh kawan time nak basuh tgan..(waktu tu dah syak something dah..)
pergi ker meja and ader satu kek yg comel..
kek teddy bear!!!

wow..lawa kut kek ni..tapi..comei2 pun kene makan gak....dan mereka dgn bijaknya memberi saya kuasa untuk memotong kek ini...dan lihatlah apa hasilnya..jeng, jeng, jeng..

inilah hasilnya..keh3..sume bising...well..ini namanya seni...seni pemotongan..haha..
sori kawan2...kek bulat tu pndai ar potong tpi kek bentuk teddy ni susah sikit nak potong...
well..ini adalah birthday yg gempak sekali...thanks kawan2 umah,,, zimie, mariah, farah husna, nur jannah, hidayu zailani, fathiah nuraina (mastermind)...thanks again!!

that's it!!

mulai hari ini aku ingin menjadi yg lebih baik...
aku ingin menjadi hamba ALLAH yg tunduk dan patuh...
aku harus berhenti berharap kepada manusia ttpi berharap hanya pada Allah~
aku ingin menjadi hamba yg mencintai Tuhannya sehingga kami boleh bertemu di Syurga...

amin..

monolog hati

entah mengapa
diri rasa kekosongan
hilang cahaya pudar sirnanya
hati ini gelisah..
jiwa tak tenteram..
terasa..
seperti kehilangan...
seperti aku tidak mengenal siapa diriku kini..
hidupku seperti berada di cabang jahiliah yg berserakan..
terlupa pada satu jalan yg harus ku tempuhi..
yg mesti ku lalui..

bahagia..
seperti jauh dariku..
ketenangan..
semakin samar2 di hati..
di mana dakwah..
di mana tarbiyah..

aku masih mencari...
berusaha mencari...
supaya kebahagiaan iman
kembali hadir di sisi hati yg sepi ini..
Allah...
jangan kau tarik nikmat iman dan islam dariku...
jika itu terjadi maka akulah manusia paling malang di dunia ini...
aminn..

Show me the way...

When first I saw my result...
Band 3!!!
I felt like crying..I felt horrible for fate that I'm going to face in the future..
Then I remembered that I had listed prays for my parents read it at Mecca during their pilgrimage, and one of them was " Oh Allah, please, please and please give me and my friends a band4 result for our MUET so that we all can enter SMSU together and be a good lawyer.."
Then, before I saw my result I called my mum and she said confidently..

"You will get band4 because I had prayed for you at Mecca, InsyaAllah!! "
and that soothed my feelings a little bit..

But things happened, happened!! I got band3 and my feet like not in the earth anymore!!
How can it happened!! What's wrong...maybe I'm not work hard enough!! maybe..
And I began to doubt about the pray..is it not accepted?? how can?? but I thought positively, maybe Allah will give me at the right time~ Husnu Zhon!!

But something happened today~
KPT had changed the rules after a lot considerations and to enter SMSU you only need Band3 BUT your English result for SPM must be A- and above. If you get B+ and below you HAVE to get Band4 no matter what!! ( eventhough it's not fair enough).

And now, this time Allah had proved that He approved my duaa and many my friends are qualified to enter SMSU. Allah didn't makbul my previous duaa but He gives something more better and the best!!

Never lose hope to Allah!!

Alhamdulillah..
Thank you Allah~

CONFUSE ??@!!??$&??

yeah..
Confuse...that's the right word for what happen to me now...
I still confuse with the path that I want to choose right now..
maybe lawyer...and maybe fiqh fatwa...and maybe I will go to Middle East further my study in Syariah..
I don't know!!!
what made thing worse was I got band3 for muet's result..
another 4 marks to get band4..urghh..so frustrated!!
actually what's really matter is I don't know what I want right now..
what I like, what I love.. It's just difficult to clarify it..
confuse..
still searching what I want..
confuse...
what I really love...
confuse..
about my future...
confuse..
when imagine what I will be in next 10 years...

Allah...please show me the right way....
give the best way~